I sincerely believe that everyone needs a crazy period before settling down. Crazy can be however the individual defines it, as long as they feel like they’re pushing their boundaries. 2011 has been my craziest period by far. I have been both sensitive and an asshole, and along the way I’ve learned a lot. By being just a little sensitive and just a little asshole I was able to forgive and let go of some of the things in my past.
I also found many things about myself that I don’t like at all- things that if I don’t work on, will be seriously detrimental to my future. Then again, I found many things about other people that I don’t like. If anything, I have become more critical of myself and others, but definitely more accepting of shortcomings. I’ve made some new friends, and I’ve grown apart from old friends. This used to make me sad, but sometimes you realize that the occasional drinking/small talk buddy is all someone will ever be, if even that at all. In the end, friendship is fluid, but my family is not. For that I can never be thankful enough.
Unfortunately I always end up being the planner for fun activities, which annoys the hell out of me but what can you do. So- hotel booked for New Year’s Eve! It’s going to be fun. There’s just a lot of relationship drama going on so I’m going to hope for the best. I’ve had more girl talks these past two weeks than I have all semester.
In this past week I’ve done a lot of baking: lemon-scented blueberry muffins with lemon frosting, coffee cupcakes with syrup, cinnamon rolls with cream cheese frosting. It’s a great way to procrastinate!
